Helping Daddy With The Dishes

Our new house is lacking one major thing..... A DISHWASHER!!! So we now get to wash every single dish by hand, isn't that GREAT!! Jack loves to stand next to whoever is washing the dishes that night and lend his helping hand. Here is Jack doing dishes with daddy.

Halloween ( a little late) : )

Yea Yea Yea... I know this post is two months late but better late than never right?? So I have decided with the help of my mom and sister that we are going to stick with the "Jack" themed costumes as long as possible... last year he was a Jack-a-lantern and this year he was a Jack Hammer, the costume turned out super cute, thanks so my mom's handy sewing skills.

Consuming Thoughts.

How can something I have never met, felt, or touched consume my every thought? I think about the baby we lost 24/7. I know there is nothing that we could have done to prevent this loss but, I can't help thinking about every little thing I did during this pregnancy and wondering if in some way that caused this. I also have selfish thoughts when I see little babies or hear that others are pregnant... why do they get to have a baby, why don't I get to have my baby, what makes them more ready to be a parent than me, what did I do to deserve to lose this baby. The thought of being around someone pregnant and hearing all about how wonderful everything is, or seeing somebody with a tiny baby make me beyond sad and I avoid that situation at all cost and have a feeling I will continue to do so for quite awhile. It is not that I do not wish these people all the best but I can't let myself be happy about there baby when I just lost mine. My job has been very difficult this last week, in the fact that I take care of babies and wonder all the time why all these people were blessed with happy healthy babies. DO NOT get me wrong, I am grateful EVERYDAY that I have Jack, he is my world and without him I would still be laying in bed feeling depressed but, having Jack doesn't make it any easier of a loss. I know that we will be pregnant again, hopeful sooner rather than later and that we will give birth to a healthy happy baby but, baby number #2 will always be in my thoughts and the what ifs will always be there.

Favorite Hiding Spot

Before we moved Jack loved getting under the sink in our bathroom. He would take everything out from under the sink and throw it in the bathtub and then sit under there forever and open and shut the door. He would laugh and laugh every time I acted scared when he popped open the door.

About Time!!!

I have been suck a slacker with the blog.... our worlds have been crazy!! Alec got a promotion at work and he has been super busy with that. We bought a house and have been crazy busy trying to make our little house a home. We also suffered a huge loss last week with the loss of baby # 2. I have never been so devastated and am still trying to emotional recovery. I am going to try and be better about blogging because Jack is getting huge with more and more personality by the minute. Here is some of what we have been up to

In September we went to Octoberfest with some friends. We had a great time and Jack loved playing with his friends and going in the bounce houses. He is a little dare devil and goes down those huge slides head first. Here are a few pictures of our fun day!!